My Other Half Isn’t…Someone Who Is Creepy

29 Jun

Well, apparently the days of meeting someone in a random romantic way are over.  Ladies and gentleman, I am officially apart of the online dating world. 

Yesterday I joined and okcupid and I have to tell you, I’m kind of creeped out.  First of all why would a male want to date a female who is more than 20 years younger that he is.  Granted, I know I may have daddy issues but I refuse to work them out by dating a guy who would have more in common with my father than me. 

Also, I’ve come to the conclusion I watch WAY too much ID discovery.  For those of you that don’t know ID discovery is a channel on cable that does nothing but show programs about murders and serial killers and the occasional kidnapping. 

So when I see a photo of a guy whose smile is really big and his eyes are open really wide, somehow I come to the conclusion that he must drive a van and circle the neighborhood for random children.

What is up with the “can you send me more pictures”?  Perhaps if you read my profile and emailed me with an actually conversation to get to know me, THEN you could see me in person and there wouldn’t be any need for more pictures.

Goodness…sometimes my paranoia about things even amaze me. 🙂

Anyway, it’s only been a day and there are a few potential people on there so maybe this isn’t a waste of 75 bucks. I saw a comment below about online dating and a happy ending so that’s giving me hope.

On a side note, I’ve been reading a lot of the comments that you guys leave me and some of them really do get me thinking. 

One comment stated that it seems like I’ve been searching for something for a long time.  A few others keep telling me not to go searching for this guy, but to find myself instead.

When I think honestly about it, it occurs to me that this search is probably to find the ultimate happiness and find where I belong.  Now, I’m not saying that another person should do that for me.

What I am saying is that this search is opening a whole new world for me and making me try things that I’ve always wanted to do but haven’t done for various reasons.  For example, I went to school for journalism and do to the economy dropping out and my school loan that had to be paid, I had to start working in an office and forget about that writing career.

Then when I thought about writing on the side it was always, “I don’t have time” or “I’m too tired”.

Now, I MAKE the time to sit and update this blog because it’s fun for me.  Plus the encouraging comments, kind words, and constructive criticisms really do help me stick with it.  It’s been a long time that I’ve stuck with anything.

Another example is traveling to places that I’ve always wanted to go.  Do you know how many times I’ve wanted to go some place but never did because my friends didn’t want to go there?  It seems that for the past few years I’ve been all about everyone else and I haven’t done anything for myself. 

No one wants to go to see Graceland with me, I’ll go alone.  If I want to go to New Orleans and do nothing but study their history and folklore, I will. 

At first this little experiment really did seem as if it was JUST to find that allusive soul mate. 

But now, I think it’s also about living the life I’ve always wanted to and doing it for myself.  I think that once I start living MY life for ME, he’ll be there.

Does any of this make sense? 

Anyway Happy Tuesday to you all! I should be registering for a new class soon and booking my New Orleans trip for my birthday soon. 

This summer is going to be absolutely magical…..


One Response to “My Other Half Isn’t…Someone Who Is Creepy”

  1. livebesidetheocean June 29, 2010 at 2:56 pm #

    First of all I’d like to say I enjoy reading your blog. It’s quite humerous and interesting.

    Second, your original wording for your blog title made me laugh “My other half isn’t someone who isn’t creepy” (that’s the way it was sent to my email). I was like “oooh, she likes creepy guys? this could be interesting!” Haha. But I see you corrected it.

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